There's Something Missing

There's something missing and I don't know what it is. I hate this feeling because its like I'm running and I don't know where I'm going. If that makes sense. I don't know if it's someone or something. But I need to found out what it is because if I don't, I feel that I'm going to be lost forever.

Being Happy With Yourself

Most people arent happy with who they are. They're always thinking about what they can do to make themselves prettier, and always trying to get peoples approval. I'm one of those people. I can honestly say that I've never been happy with who I am, or what I look like. I feel like there is always something I find that is wrong with me. Now all my life I have been told that I am a beautiful and intelligent girl. I do think that I am intelligent and that I will do many things with my life. But it is so hard for me to believe that I am a beautiful girl. No matter who may tell me or how many times they may tell me I just can't believe them. So I've set a goal for myself. My goal is to have more self confidence. And this is why; No one can love someone, if they don't love themselves.

Here One Minute Gone The Next

December 29th 2005 My life was changed forever. Something was taken away from me that I can never get back. My brother; Ruben Jr. or better known as Rubencito. I remember it like it was yesterday. My mother came into my room with my older sister. Her eyes looked blood shot and swollen, so asked her "Mami what's wrong?" and she said I don't know how to tell you but Ruben is dead. At first I thought it was my father but then they explained to me that it was my brother and thats where I felt that my whole life crumbled down infront of me and there was nothing that I can do. I begged my mom to bring him back, and she told me that there was nothing that she can do. I fell to my knees and called out to God and asked him why he would take my brother away from me. Til' this day I never did get my answer. God's does everything with a purpose. So everytime that my brother passes through my mind I will always remind myself that with everything God does, there is always a purpose. My brother was here one minute and gone the next. Cherish every minute you have with the people that you love. And never take them for granted, because you never know when they'll be gone. May my brother Ruben Rest In Peace, and I hope and pray to be reunited with you one day.